Hi everybody,
A new member of the crew here.
I've found this Forum back in January, when I thought about BK for the very first time. Since then I've learned a lot, thanks to all knowledgeable people here. I could not make myself to post, though. Each time I was about to I had this sick feeling in my stomack, that I am sure most of you are familiar with. I was still fighting and tried to find other solutions. well, it's a lost fight, and I finally realised it somewhere in March.
I am a sole proprietor of a once blossoming but now dead business. My only income besides of that are alimony and child support, 3K monthly. In DC Metro area where I live it's not much, really. Have about 60K of CC debt, about $20K of medical debt (after I paid about 50K in medical bills over the last few years), still good FICO score and current on everything.
The problem is I can't force myself to stop paying! I was going to do this past month and could not. So I made my minimal payments (about 11 Hundred) yet again... and barely made it through April. Almost starved myself.
Now it's the time of payments again. Today and tomorrow four of mine CCs are due, two of which I intend to pay for another couple of months (had some small charges in March/April, so not to starve my son) Two BofA CCs gotta go unpaid, and then Discover. And I am going crazy about this. I found myself on the computer twice already, about to pay (I do it over the Internet). I know, I know, it's like burning money. I know that I gotta stop agonizing and start preparing my BK, clarify questions I have, timing etc... But I can't! I've never thought it would be so hard to stop paying as soon as it's decided.
Maybe, it will be easier after today. If I make it through, of course. many of you wrote that it gets better.
I am sorry for such a silly post, but I really need help to stop paying. Then I hopefully will be able to ask questions.
I used to be so proud of myself... never been late, in default or something like this.
Thank you so much to everybody here for a lot of a great info and for being such a warm and supportive community. It is one of the best Forums I've even been lurking/visiting/posting at.
BkCat
A new member of the crew here.
I've found this Forum back in January, when I thought about BK for the very first time. Since then I've learned a lot, thanks to all knowledgeable people here. I could not make myself to post, though. Each time I was about to I had this sick feeling in my stomack, that I am sure most of you are familiar with. I was still fighting and tried to find other solutions. well, it's a lost fight, and I finally realised it somewhere in March.
I am a sole proprietor of a once blossoming but now dead business. My only income besides of that are alimony and child support, 3K monthly. In DC Metro area where I live it's not much, really. Have about 60K of CC debt, about $20K of medical debt (after I paid about 50K in medical bills over the last few years), still good FICO score and current on everything.
The problem is I can't force myself to stop paying! I was going to do this past month and could not. So I made my minimal payments (about 11 Hundred) yet again... and barely made it through April. Almost starved myself.
Now it's the time of payments again. Today and tomorrow four of mine CCs are due, two of which I intend to pay for another couple of months (had some small charges in March/April, so not to starve my son) Two BofA CCs gotta go unpaid, and then Discover. And I am going crazy about this. I found myself on the computer twice already, about to pay (I do it over the Internet). I know, I know, it's like burning money. I know that I gotta stop agonizing and start preparing my BK, clarify questions I have, timing etc... But I can't! I've never thought it would be so hard to stop paying as soon as it's decided.
Maybe, it will be easier after today. If I make it through, of course. many of you wrote that it gets better.
I am sorry for such a silly post, but I really need help to stop paying. Then I hopefully will be able to ask questions.
I used to be so proud of myself... never been late, in default or something like this.
Thank you so much to everybody here for a lot of a great info and for being such a warm and supportive community. It is one of the best Forums I've even been lurking/visiting/posting at.
BkCat
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