Seeing the attorney tomorrow for an over-median no-asset Ch 7 tomorrow-- all roads lead to bk or death. So now I'm 99.99999999% certain that I am filing and filing asap, I'm consumed with all things financial. I logged into my checking (also my mtg holder and Visa holder!!) to look for various disclosures in advance of opening a new checking as advised by forum members...and voila I'm already freaking overdrawn, 6 days after payday!
Now I'm not even sure I *could* make it another 6 mos, much less 12! I was slammed with 6 NSF -type charges 2-3 wks ago (the associated Visa is maxed and I have taken their payday loans a few times over the past year--somehow they don't seem to be as forgiving on my balance issues as before?!) My finance "method", if you will, was to pay the bills, total the amounts paid against my checking balance, and then carry the balance around in my head till next pay check. Obviously this is not a sound system and has backfired a time or two.
Part of the NSF issue is obviously the bottom line, or I wouldn't be at this forum (of $2500 funds, 90% of debits were DEBT SERVICE), of the other purchases there was a single $135 grocery trip and $100 of gas, cigarettes, prescription co-pays, son's $10 allowance and fast food. With a net of -$38.97 and NSF for the last 3 items --the last one was that ever-so-necessary $10 allowance (xfer to Visa Buxx card)--yah, THAT was necessary!
Looking at this picture, even I can see that THIS IDJIT CAN'T GRASP BASIC FINANCE--you stop spending when the bucket is dry, woman! I know that, once I get a confirmed plan together, I believe I will be fine. I have been practicing the ostrich approach: there were +- 2 pay periods of funds/bills over the past week because I didn't pay anything after my last check (and the > $180 in overdraft fees) but that won't happen again--my plan is the use the monthly budget envelope system --figure out what you can spend and put that amount in an envelope...when it's gone, it's gone! I've never been good at keeping a check register, so I will deal with cash only unless the type of transaction makes that impossible--I feel confident that this will help me keep a handle on things.
My question is: how do you START starting over?? When you are a financial disaster, and you know it, how do you even pick which thread to attempt to stop the unraveling? How can I start my envelope system now? Before I even file and everything is going to be a giant mess for a little bit?
Oh GOD I think I just did something really stupid (I mean even more stupid than my behavior of the past 4 years)...I keep thinking "just maintain until you talk to the attorney" and, even where the bank account is concerned, my intention is to open a new one, but not change my behavior at my current one. I have my mortgage, Visa and checking at the same bank--I don't want to do anything to freak them out as they obviously have the most to lose in this bk. So...saw the 3 items that are over limit...thinking "I hate this so much...these mf'ers...it's for the last time...just maintain a little longer..." I did another payday loan ($500 at $50 fee--comes out of my next direct deposit on the 23rd)...now I just looked again--where they showed no actual overdraft charges before, just the negative balance, now there are 6 at $37.50 apiece!! I took a crazy high interest rate loan on my $500 just so that I could get the the current --remember the neg balance was only -$38.97-- and not be stressed over pennies for the next week. Now the piranha's just TOOK it--nearly all of it!! All I was trying to do was not make waves...
To think I even worked for this company (US Bank) for about 18 mos (processing mortgage loans, no less). If ever a bank could make more money from a single individual, I can't think of a way--first my labor...then the Visa...then the subprime mortgage...now they're snapping up every delicious, tiny little morsel as my life falls to pieces.
And to think that every member of this board has experienced the same...and is only representative of a tiny fraction of our countrymen experiencing the same...
I think I need a good cry. Maybe some illicit drugs.
Thanks for reading--I do have a serious question about starting to budget for poor money managers--sorry it got lost in the drama.
Now I'm not even sure I *could* make it another 6 mos, much less 12! I was slammed with 6 NSF -type charges 2-3 wks ago (the associated Visa is maxed and I have taken their payday loans a few times over the past year--somehow they don't seem to be as forgiving on my balance issues as before?!) My finance "method", if you will, was to pay the bills, total the amounts paid against my checking balance, and then carry the balance around in my head till next pay check. Obviously this is not a sound system and has backfired a time or two.
Part of the NSF issue is obviously the bottom line, or I wouldn't be at this forum (of $2500 funds, 90% of debits were DEBT SERVICE), of the other purchases there was a single $135 grocery trip and $100 of gas, cigarettes, prescription co-pays, son's $10 allowance and fast food. With a net of -$38.97 and NSF for the last 3 items --the last one was that ever-so-necessary $10 allowance (xfer to Visa Buxx card)--yah, THAT was necessary!
Looking at this picture, even I can see that THIS IDJIT CAN'T GRASP BASIC FINANCE--you stop spending when the bucket is dry, woman! I know that, once I get a confirmed plan together, I believe I will be fine. I have been practicing the ostrich approach: there were +- 2 pay periods of funds/bills over the past week because I didn't pay anything after my last check (and the > $180 in overdraft fees) but that won't happen again--my plan is the use the monthly budget envelope system --figure out what you can spend and put that amount in an envelope...when it's gone, it's gone! I've never been good at keeping a check register, so I will deal with cash only unless the type of transaction makes that impossible--I feel confident that this will help me keep a handle on things.
My question is: how do you START starting over?? When you are a financial disaster, and you know it, how do you even pick which thread to attempt to stop the unraveling? How can I start my envelope system now? Before I even file and everything is going to be a giant mess for a little bit?
Oh GOD I think I just did something really stupid (I mean even more stupid than my behavior of the past 4 years)...I keep thinking "just maintain until you talk to the attorney" and, even where the bank account is concerned, my intention is to open a new one, but not change my behavior at my current one. I have my mortgage, Visa and checking at the same bank--I don't want to do anything to freak them out as they obviously have the most to lose in this bk. So...saw the 3 items that are over limit...thinking "I hate this so much...these mf'ers...it's for the last time...just maintain a little longer..." I did another payday loan ($500 at $50 fee--comes out of my next direct deposit on the 23rd)...now I just looked again--where they showed no actual overdraft charges before, just the negative balance, now there are 6 at $37.50 apiece!! I took a crazy high interest rate loan on my $500 just so that I could get the the current --remember the neg balance was only -$38.97-- and not be stressed over pennies for the next week. Now the piranha's just TOOK it--nearly all of it!! All I was trying to do was not make waves...
To think I even worked for this company (US Bank) for about 18 mos (processing mortgage loans, no less). If ever a bank could make more money from a single individual, I can't think of a way--first my labor...then the Visa...then the subprime mortgage...now they're snapping up every delicious, tiny little morsel as my life falls to pieces.
And to think that every member of this board has experienced the same...and is only representative of a tiny fraction of our countrymen experiencing the same...
I think I need a good cry. Maybe some illicit drugs.
Thanks for reading--I do have a serious question about starting to budget for poor money managers--sorry it got lost in the drama.
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