There. Now we both feel better and can get over it.Losing my job because of illness and going on SSDI is only part of it. That part couldn't really be helped. Some of the stupider choices I made in the aftermath of that could have possibly been avoided. Possibly. I don't know even know that for sure. I was pretty sick and pretty out of it due to medication for a while there. But hindsight being 20/20, there are things I did in that time that I know I would never have done in my right mind, and will never repeat.
But everything is going to be alright and I can choose to make better choices for myself in the future. If that means being a little bit selfish, so be it. Not using the word "NO" enough is partially how I got here. Trying to be "nice" and help every body else and now I am the one struggling to pay the consequences...
It all stops. Now.
Hopefully this Chapter 13 will go smoothly and help me get my life going back in the direction I want it to go.
Happy New Year.